<![CDATA[Understanding Trans]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.comhttps://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ClEz!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3eb923e1-99b2-42e6-a402-8e73e7ccd6fe_1024x1024.pngUnderstanding Transhttps://www.autoheterosexual.comSubstackSun, 03 May 2026 11:14:34 GMT<![CDATA[ep38— Edison]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep38-edisonhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep38-edisonSat, 10 Jan 2026 18:01:27 GMTEdison is a trans man interested in historical figures and the history of science. He has been hormonally transitioning for over a year and is pursuing a master's degree in historical subjects.

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]]><![CDATA[Female Autoandrophilia]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/female-autoandrophiliahttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/female-autoandrophiliaMon, 13 Oct 2025 17:22:24 GMTIt is not yet generally accepted among leading sexologists that female autoandrophilia exists, nor that it is a major contributor to gender dysphoria and transsexualism in females. I think they are overlooking the primary cause of FTM transsexualism, so I wrote a paper for publication in the best sexology journal, Archives of Sexual Behavior.

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“Female Autoandrophilia” is currently the best peer-reviewed paper on female autoandrophilia.

I say this not to brag, or because I think this paper is perfect, but rather for a simpler, sadder reason: this is the first peer-reviewed paper on female autoandrophilia. That’s just how neglected this subject is.

In “Female Autoandrophilia”, I put forward a case for the existence of female autoandrophilia with three lines of evidence:

  1. Published narratives and case studies which show females who report sexual interest in being masculine or male.

  2. Surveys that investigate the prevalence of paraphilias consistently find that some females endorse measures of cross-gender eroticism (e.g., arousal from the idea of being male, arousal from crossdressing).

  3. Some of the people who report rarer kinds of dysphoria or trans identity are female, and transgenderism occurs among them at elevated rates.

These first two are direct indicators that autoandrophilia likely exists. Males who report sexual interest in being the other sex do so because of autogynephilia, so when females report sexual interest in being the other sex, the most straightforward and obvious explanation is that they are experiencing an analogous phenomenon (i.e., autoandrophilia). This logic and reasoning here is pretty clear and unambiguous, so I won’t elaborate on it further here.

The third line of evidence for female autoandrophilia is indirect but has a broader implication: females can experience erotic target identity inversion. Some of the people who experience body integrity dysphoria are female (and indeed, some of them report sexuality related to it). Likewise, some females participate in the Adult Baby/Diaper Lover subculture in which people commonly eroticize wearing diapers or roleplaying as a child. Similarly, females also belong to the otherkin and therian subcultures. Studies and community surveys of these populations indicate that people who report these rarer types of trans identity and dysphoria also experience gender dysphoria and transgender identity at elevated rates. This demographic overlap between transgender identity and rarer, non-gendered forms of trans identity occurs in both sexes. This is exactly what you’d expect if all these populations are the result of erotic target identity inversion.

I felt it was important to include evidence and arguments in favor of the broader notion that females can experience erotic target identity inversion because the fact that some females report sexual arousal from the idea of being male is not convincing enough for some people. Maybe they think females simply don’t get paraphilias and therefore female autoandrophilia doesn’t exist. Or maybe they think that behaviors and feelings which might seem like autoandrophilia on the surface are actually just an eroticized way of escaping patriarchy. Whatever their reasoning, I think people who deny the existence of female autoandrophilia and its relevance to FTM transsexualism are incorrect, and I would like them to explain why some females seem to have the rarer kinds of erotic target identity inversion based on internalized sexual attraction to disabled people, children, or animals, yet somehow do not ever experience an internalized variant of heterosexuality—the most common form of sexuality.

In the future, I may write a summary of the paper and post it here, but for now I just wanted to let you know the paper exists and encourage you to read it.

Feel free to share the PDF with others via emails, DMs, discord servers, forums, etc. More people need to know about female autoandrophilia.

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]]><![CDATA[ep37— Lopori]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep37-loporihttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep37-loporiSat, 31 May 2025 18:11:09 GMTLopori is a bonobo therian. As a child, she would sometimes pretend to be a caveman. During adolescence, her penchant for apeness developed into fascination with primates and she desired to be one herself, a process which ultimately culminated in bonobo identity.

Lopori administered a survey on alterhumanity and sexuality to the otherkin and therian communities, which was indispensable for the otherkin chapter of my book. She was kind enough to join me for this conversation to share about her transspecies experiences, thoughts on nonhuman identity, and results from her alterhumanity and sexuality survey.

Note: we had some technical difficulties, so the sound is a bit wonky on this one and there may be some discontinuities.

Alterhumanity and Sexuality Survey, results: https://www.tumblr.com/goddamnitlopori/639799806560239616/alterhumanity-and-sexuality-survey-the-results

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]]><![CDATA[ep36— River]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep36-riverhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep36-riverFri, 11 Apr 2025 18:11:51 GMTRiver is autogynephilic and about to embark on the path of gender transition. They have come out to several people as autogynephilic, and hope for greater understanding and acceptance of autogynephilia and transness.

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]]><![CDATA[ep35— Curious]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep35-curioushttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep35-curiousFri, 21 Feb 2025 19:11:51 GMTCurious is autogynephilic, but spent way too long searching for the answer for why he wanted to embody femininity yet not finding accurate information. He wants gender discourse to become more moderate, and for information about autogynephilia to be more widely available so that other AGPs won't have to deal with as much confusion about their feelings.

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Read my book: https://www.amazon.com/Autoheterosexual-Attracted-Being-Other-Sex/dp/1544541449/

Set up a call with me: https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/speak-with-me

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]]><![CDATA[ep34— JJ]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep34-jjhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep34-jjFri, 14 Feb 2025 19:11:59 GMTJJ is an autoandrophilic detransitioner. She likes being muscular, has a penchant for male-male romance, and likes gaming with the guys. Her gender dysphoria started once she was exposured to trans men on Livejournal. After buying into the mainstream trans framework, she concluded that her desire to be a man meant she was probably trans and she transitioned as a result.

During transition, JJ found that the pressure of passing worsened her dysphoria. She detransitioned after having a psychotic break and going on anti-psychotic medication, which eliminated her propensity for daydreaming of being a man. She has become reconciled to being female and does not experience dysphoria anymore.

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]]><![CDATA[ep33— Lauren]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep33-laurenhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep33-laurenFri, 07 Feb 2025 19:11:55 GMTLauren is an autogynephilic detransitioner. He experienced significant autoandrophobia from age 5 and ultimately transitioned DIY-style around age 17, yet after about a decade chose to detransition following a change in values and priorities. His desire to reproduce and make a positive long-term contribution precipitated his decision to detransition.

Lauren has been partnered to a trans man for 4 years - married for 2 years - and they are now undergoing IVF to have biological kids together. Their relationship faced significant hardships during Lauren's mindset shifts, detransition, and emergent desire to have kids - but they've remained together and even gotten closer.

Lauren's YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@unreadlibrarian

𝕏: https://x.com/unreadlibraries

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]]><![CDATA[ep32— Jackie]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep32-jackiehttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep32-jackieFri, 31 Jan 2025 19:11:51 GMTJackie is an autosexual transsexual (MTF) who is analloerotic-leaning. Her autoandrophobia surfaced at 12. She began social transition at 15 and medical transition at 18. She is currently 21 and studying computer science at university.

An article that came up during discussion, "Not Like Other Boys"— https://anneonymousa.substack.com/p/not-like-other-boys

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]]><![CDATA[ep31— Sasha]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep31-sashahttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep31-sashaSat, 25 Jan 2025 19:11:54 GMTSasha is autogynephilic and Christian. She has a penchant for ancient biblical languages and is trying to navigate how to integrate her desires for feminine embodiment into her life.

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]]><![CDATA[ep30— Taftaj]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep30-taftajhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep30-taftajFri, 17 Jan 2025 19:11:32 GMTTaftaj is a trans woman of autogynephilic etiology. She was a pediatric transitioner, and although over the years she has gone back and forth on whether that was a good idea, she is satisfied with her decision to transition. Taftaj talks about transness in a realistic and thoughtful way, so I was especially glad to have her on the show.

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𝕏— https://x.com/tafphorisms

Essay, 'The Tragedy of Female Identification'— https://x.com/tafphorisms/status/1870254059388571676

Taf's appearance on Boyce

Dollcast— https://www.youtube.com/@Dollcast-r8n

]]><![CDATA[ep29— Laura Becker]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep29-laura-beckerhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep29-laura-beckerFri, 10 Jan 2025 19:11:47 GMTLaura Becker is female detransitioner whose transition was partly motivated by autoandrophilia. She transitioned young, at age 19, but found that it further destabilized her mental well-being. After detransitioning, she finally began to make progress on her mental health and flourish.

Laura has been a detransitioner advocate for several years and is the author of the upcoming memoir, Surviving The Trans Myth: A Memoir of Detransition. Less importantly, she was the person beside me in the picture that triggered the blue dress controversy.

𝕏: https://x.com/LauraBeckerReal

Audio: https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep29-laura-becker

]]><![CDATA[ep28— Frankie]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep28-frankiehttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep28-frankieSat, 04 Jan 2025 19:11:44 GMTFrankie (aka Syd Sixx) is an autoandrophilic trans man. He met hundreds of trans men in his years of doing sex work, and he was kind enough to share some of what he witnessed. He thinks autoandrophilia is common among FTMs and that other trans men may benefit from understanding it.

𝕏: https://x.com/frankie_dykeman

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]]><![CDATA[ep27— Jeanne]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep27-jeannehttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep27-jeanneSun, 29 Dec 2024 19:11:47 GMTJeanne is an autosexual trans woman. She had a particularly early onset of autogynephilia, and near the end of puberty her gender dysphoria worsened. She began medically transitioning a couple years ago and is quite confident that transitioning was the right choice for her. In this chatty conversation we bounced among various gender-related topics such as gender criticals, how self-aware AGPs are treated by the mainstream transgender crowd, and what the policy aims of the transgender movement should be. Jeanne is hopeful about what the future holds for transgender people.

YouTube

𝕏: https://x.com/jeannestradiol

]]><![CDATA[ep26— Barefooter]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep26-barefooterhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep26-barefooterSun, 22 Dec 2024 19:11:32 GMTBarefooter is a Christian priest. He is also autogynephilic, and has extensive experience with immersive daydreams of various feminine personas. In recent years he has made a more extensive effort to integrate his male and female sides and become more thoroughly embodied.

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]]><![CDATA[ep25— Schyler]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep25-schylerhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep25-schylerSun, 15 Dec 2024 19:11:41 GMTSchyler is a trans woman of autosexual etiology. She grew up in a religious household. In childhood, she dreamed of being a girl and wished to be one. With the onset of puberty, her cross-gender ideation got a bit more spicy. As her gender issues progressed in college, she began going out crossdressed as a woman. Now she has a wife, many cats, and is quite happy with her decision to transition. In addition to talking about her personal experience, we also talked about the Genspect conference, the fallout afterward, and gender criticals.

I met Schyler at the Genspect conference in Denver last year, and I've wanted to have her on my channel for quite some time now. She's one of the most reasonable autosexual transsexuals out there.

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See more from Schyler:

𝕏: https://x.com/schylerspace
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/ @schylerspace

Schyler’s appearance on Benjamin Boyce’s Calmversations

Life story and transition video compilation

]]><![CDATA[ep23— Mr. Moon]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep23-mr-moonhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep23-mr-moonSun, 24 Nov 2024 19:11:47 GMTMr. Moon is a young AGP who has grown up in a post-social-media world. He first socially transitioned at 14 and has desisted from it a couple times. He originally thought of AGPs as people who were giving trans a bad name, but after resonating with more nuanced portrayals of autogynephilia, he realized he fit in that category. He has come to terms with being autogynephilic and is trying to figure out which path forward is suitable for him.

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Interview with @TruthfulTranssexual

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]]><![CDATA[ep22— Krystal]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep22-krystalhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep22-krystalSun, 17 Nov 2024 19:11:50 GMTKrystal is autogynephilic, but wasn't always at peace with this side of herself. For years, she went through binge and purge cycles that involved secretive crossdressing. As the internal tension built up, she decided that she needed to change her approach and stop being secretive. She came out to her wife, began engaging in more open gender exploration, and decided to socially and medically transition. A couple years into this more open lifestyle, she continues to be satisfied with her decision to try transitioning.

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]]><![CDATA[ep21— Dakota]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep21-dakotahttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep21-dakotaSun, 10 Nov 2024 19:11:55 GMTDakota is an autogynephilic transsexual. She is a few years into transition and currently studying psychology in college. She transitioned due to what she calls "autoandrophobia" (revulsion to one's male sex traits), a construct she prefers over "gender dysphoria".

Dakota became uncommonly knowledgeable about autogynephilia after reading all the relevant autogynephilia studies several times. She also has a keen eye for spotting autoandrophilia in females, and has put a lot of thought into comparing AAP with AGP.

This one is longer than usual. I knew Dakota would have a lot of insight to share about the psychology of autoheterosexuality, and I wanted y'all to hear her perspective. She also has a Substack with some essays on transgenderism. In particular, I highly recommend reading her "Transgenderism as individual psychopathology" article, which is linked below.

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𝕏: https://x.com/anne__onymous_

Dakota's Essays:

Transgenderism as individual psychopathology— https://anneonymousa.substack.com/p/transgenderism-as-individual-psychopathology

Not Like Other Boys— https://anneonymousa.substack.com/p/not-like-other-boys

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]]><![CDATA[ep20— Jack]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep20-jackhttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep20-jackSun, 03 Nov 2024 19:11:47 GMTJack is autoandrophilic. He grew up in a Christian environment, had difficulty finding peace as female, and pursued a career as a therapist. He is now transitioning cautiously, one step at a time. As a therapist, he works with many kids on the spectrum. He discussed his approach to handling gender with gender-variant kids and their parents.

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]]><![CDATA[ep19— NJada]]>https://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep19-njadahttps://www.autoheterosexual.com/p/ep19-njadaSun, 27 Oct 2024 18:11:40 GMTNJada (EN-YAH-DAH) is a detransitioner whose inner gender conflict is likely of autogynephilic etiology. When he transitioned in college, he was welcomed in his feminine persona. But after an LSD experience in which he lucidly felt the difference between him and females, he lost confidence that transition was the correct path and he stopped hormones shortly thereafter. A few years after detransitioning, he had another rough battle with gender dysphoria, but in recent years he's been able to reduce the intensity and frequency of the gender dysphoria he experiences by consciously choosing to face aspects of his maleness head-on.

The Lost Boys

Interview with Boyce

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